baby it's cold outside

this past week has been more than hell, in between sleeping so little and barely getting all my work done (or not at all, in the case of one project).

it's gotten so cold recently. the semester is winding down, and frankly i am glad for it. the past few months have been rough, what with losing anne, and all the drama and the non-stop work.

winter used to feel warmer, sweeter, like i want to embrace the people around me even more. but this year, i don't know if it's the insomnia or not, i've been sad, bitter, unhappy with everything that's going on. i remember that i didn't use to be like this.

tonight was the opening reception for our thesis show... the outpouring of love and support that i received from those who came was sweet, but overshadowed, so unfortunately and unwillingly, by the few noted absences.

what am i to do? the bitter (cold and otherwise) is consuming me.